I’m pretty new to this whole Christian thing. I started seriously going to church less than two years ago, and the last six months of my life haven’t made that track record any better. I call myself a Christian, I go church on Sundays, and I read my bible more days than not.
But even with all this, there is still a part of me that holds on to sin, that holds tightly and desperately onto the things that draw me away from Christ.
Lately, even more so than normally, I’ve felt God’s calling to center my life to Him, to abandon my sins and to strengthen my faith. It’s hard. Even with my love for Christ, to get rid of and give up things that I’m attached to isn’t easy. I know everyone struggles with sin, but it always feels so much realer to me. These are things that I’ve grown accustomed to, that have grown into habits, and things that have become a part of my life.
Honestly, I can sit here and make excuses for myself all I want, but where is that going to get me? It’ll leave me in the same place. Struggling with guilt and the concept of grace.
You make me new, You are making me new
One of the many incredible things about our Creator is His grace, His continuous support, and His everlasting shaping of our hearts. It’s never too late to be shaped by His wisdom and there’s no ending point where our work for Him is finished. The Lord is never finished with me. I’m fearfully and wonderfully made, a treasured child in His kingdom. Even when I mess up, He’s holding my feet up and carrying me through the darkest parts of life.
There will be no stopping point to my sin. I will continue to feel guilty about it and worry about it and mess up and feel like crap about it. But, there’s something, someone that I have on my side.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come -2 Corinthians 5:17
How sweet is that? “He is a new creation.” Since I’ve accepted Jesus into my heart, I’m a new creation. Christ is working in my heart with every passing second. The Lord is using what I’m doing right now to strengthen me and teach me lessons. When I seek Him, He answers me and draws me closer.
So… where do I go from here? How do I just give up my sin?
The real question is: How does a Christian do anything?
I pray that the Lord gives me the strength to be the person I’m meant to be. I hope that He strengthens my resolve so that I can be an example of His love and His good works.
Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.You will find me when you seek me with all your heart. -Jeremiah 19:12
The way I center myself to Him is by meditating on His word, by opening my heart to Him in worship, in song, and in my actions.
How can a young person stay on the path to purity? By living according to Your word. I see You with all my heart; do not let me stray from Your commands. -Psalm 119:9-10